Blogging

I am learning so much about myself as I work on this blog. 

Having a blog has confirmed that writing is hard for me. I talk about life easily and love to sit over coffee to listen to others’ stories and share mine when needed. But writing it… is hard. I hate excuses and do not allow my children to give them when there is something for which they are responsible. No one personally is really checking in with me, and so, I find myself making excuses about why I don’t have time to write a blog post. The Spirit is checking in with me and my soul is getting restless in my disobedience. Ugh, that is not a pretty sight. It is making me grumble about the other things in my life that I am allowing to fill my time. Other wonderful things, that I enjoy tremendously, but, because I know that I am not doing what I have told God that I would do, I become grumpy about everything else!  I do love helping people, but I am discovering that I am not creating purposeful space for this blog. I am fitting it into whatever spare moments that I have.  Which are not many. I think about it constantly, and my mind is constantly composing the next post… but, when I do finally sit, I stare at the blank page.

I try to schedule what is most important to me, so that there is intentional space set aside for those things, but for some reason, the time I set aside for this just gets filled. Sigh. 

I am currently sitting in a coffee shop watching a group of friends that have gathered out on the patio, 3 young women each with 2 very young children, one husband, and 2 older women.  The conversation is flowing, lots of smiles and laughter. The sweet kids are milling around the table, playing with small toys that they brought and eating their cookies that they dropped off the ground.  At the next table over, are two white haired gentlemen.  They, too, are enjoying conversation and occasionally, slipping a wave or silly face to the children. It is a precious scene to witness. 

I want to join their gathering! I want to sit over coffee and talk and laugh! It might be my favorite thing to do. This computer does not feel as worthwhile as the company that I am watching. And, so, I will envision each of you, my precious readers, as sitting across the table from me, enjoying the bustle of people around us, while our world’s slow down together for a cup of coffee, deep conversation and for a boost of energy to re-enter the busyness of this life refreshed and encouraged.

So, I apologize for not keeping my appointments with you. I will order your next cup of coffee and look forward to engaging with you. The Holy Spirit is so patient with me, stirring in me enough to make me restless but waiting for me to respond in obedience. 

Six years ago, when the spirit first prompted me to write a blog, I bought the book, “Blogging for Dummies”. I still haven’t read it!! My Good Lookin’ read it and gave me the highlights, but maybe, it is time to crack that open. In the meantime, this blogging dummy is bumbling through the unfamiliar to share what I do know in the areas that the Spirit has gifted me. Maybe soon, I will add more pictures… (I wont add any excuses here. I do look forward to years from now being able to look back and see how far my blogging abilities have come!)

There are a handful of you that started the Discipleship when I started this blog. Thank you for keeping me on task. I am barely a day ahead of you. But hearing your stories of walking through scripture with your children have been so encouraging. The private messages asking for the next set of questions or making sure that the next study will be posted before morning are so appreciated. I am grateful for you and excited for your children to know and love Jesus more!

My sweet readers, if you have a specific question or topic about which you would like for me to share my thoughts, please let me know.

Also, to my lovely Friday gals… I love you all. I am thankful for your friendships (though, a little mad at COVID for messing with our time together), for our years together, for our dedicated Fridays and our spontaneous gatherings, and for your encouragement in stepping outside my comfort zone to this world of online friendship. Let’s have coffee soon!